weird thoughts at weird times.....

weird and unexpected things happen at one point or other in everyone's life but this time it was a bit harsh....what simple and carefree was the journey from jamshedpur to my village......everything was normal.....i have to spend some time with my uncles and aunts and my sis....yeah....exam is knocking but almost 15 days are left....i spent quality time there....such a relief.....but no.....events had to turn out this way....i am not blaming it but then what will you say when tata steel chooses you out of 4 guys selected in the written exam.....i don't know how was my exam as i have never known because i hardly discuss any paper....i was at DARBHANGA when nishi sent me the sms.....it staed...."abey tera tata steel ka written ho gaya hai.....majak nahi kar raha hun....sachhi...." there were 3 or 4 missed calls.....and then a flurry of congratulatory calls....i can't explain it.....my mind went numb and i hardly remember anything of that 3 or 4 hour duration.....i know it was not that big an issue because there was an interview waiting for me about which i knew nothing.....but when you consider the tough competition of my branch and see my rank (30+/67) it seems a great achievement.....isn't it?....


so there i ways, gaping and staring at nothing.....i had to reach jamshedpur as soon as possible.....news welcoming me were.....maoists are blasting the tracks of the route and the train is 3 hours late at the starting station.....i think that i don't lose my cool in difficult situations but there i was.....frustrated as hell and don't know what to do.....i was even considering to fucking forget the train and take a bus.....and if you know the route you will surely appreciate my decision of not considering the option.....i can't explain enough, how long the journey was......when i reached jamshedpur i had made my mind to gulp a beer and throw out those useless frustrating thoughts out of my mind.....but chinki saved me from this unwelcoming thought too......i wouldn't have survived the interview if i had done that......

i don't know what is the limit of coolness but this incident showed me that i have to go a long way to achieve what i want to achieve....a state where an incident will not carry any exaggerated effect on my mind in any situation.....i don't say that was completely off the track.....at least i managed to get through the interview....but it was really weird....