pure1

let us hear this beautiful song, comfortably numb. it urges u to wake up when u r asleep yet. he (but who?) wants to help you and why?.....he is by all his means, assuring you to become comfortable. he wants to gather some information about u and that means he is enquiring that how much high you are. singer says bla bla bla. what are you talking about.... i m not getting anything and you cannot gather any information about me at least by asking from me. and he also says that he should not judge him by his current situation (or he is not a drug addict). and the tune is like someone is suing the cloth and the needles are being pressed into the cloth. he tries to escape from his body and asking his soul to leave his body because the unknown person has been hurting it and he cannt do anything to get read of this pain. and now he is being treated for his drugs. he feels that he is coming into some other world because he is feeling...... in his childhood he was covering the earth in an envelope of thoughts and know pricking the envelope to see what is under the envelope. now this tune is like painting some fine strokes or drawing a graph with so many sharp points and getting up a curve or climbing down. now this; i m writing from my memory because i cannt afford leaving it unlistened. he plots a graph like tiiiiiiiiiiititi ti tiyi yenyen titiyiyenyen titrertrara tua tua......

so much fun

DEHSAT

it has been a great day. and to such a great extent that even s.s.p.(digital prof) has harassed us to a very little extent. i heard that he started to make guys senti in the classroom and thanx to our great brachmates that they even waited for him to leave the class. anyways it was real fun watching the skit in evening. we all chhapri guys used all our experiences to make everyone there laugh. it was great. sikkim sir was in his full flow and shahrukh boss was unbelievable. i wonder sometimes how many cheap comments does he have in his stock or is that everlasting.
it is worth mentioning here that dehsat has also got the potential. i can never forget his "ankhiyon se goli mare" cheap. it was awesome, mind blowing. the last but not the least thing to make the day wonderful is the news of having no classes tommorow. so the night will be perfect too.

free day

is it necessary to have something everyday to blow your mind out. today i had nothing, no booze, no joints... just listening to the music and admiring the surrounding of my hostel. half of the day was lost recovering from the hangover of the last day. this is the worst part of alcohol. it gives you dizzy feeling and as if it were not enough, you will lose all the following day with no appetite. besides all this there have been some 15 to 20 days of classes and how much i have attended. not more than 5 or 6 periods. it is obviously not the best way to lead a college life but what if i m unable to do more than this. i can assure you that i have been trying hard to cope with the ongoing studies. i had not scored that bad in the previous sems but the last. in the last one i wasnt able to score good but that was the case with almost all my branch mates. so why worry. just chill and do whatever you want to do.

frustating day....

after many days its booze. so i m sentimental you know. today our team lost; what can be worst than this. i hav been watching the match with some joint under me and i was sooooo much involved in the game.this team lost because some guys dont play the game in right spirit.you may not have the talent but giving your 100% is always possible for you and unless you do this your team cant win or at least it will not be a good team. when someone discuss that i should have been in the team without having any practise under his belt you know how it feels.... what the fuck is this yaar. you are not here to build your career and even then you are so much desperate to be in the team. what does this show? this shows only that you are here so desperate and frustrated to gain some respect that you can never play the game in right attitude. i simply dont like this attitude.

what to do

sometimes i think is this habit good or bad. do i really? no i dont think so. and why should i, as i hav this thing on my "about me' section that i want to be happy at all times and do whatever i want to do at all instants that includes all acts and habbits alltogether. whether it be smoking, drinking and all other acts too. today it is hashish an this i can proudly say. how can one be happy untill he is experiencing all things or at least trying to do so. so i try on each and every thing that is possible in this world. maybe it can effect my health but i hav the satisfaction of trying an another thing to which i can be judgemental latter. so once again i m here halfconsious and deciding about the world as if it were all mine.

yes i got my kick this time. you know how it feels when you recognise a sound from a great distance and feel the music to an unexplained pleasure. its great. this time i am missing my alpenlibes. that taste; i dont know how and where they make these combinations from.this would surely have been tasted for perfection on some guys like us. bora on his lappy as always. this boy has got something in his head. never hav got anything to say and at times he can frustrate you with his endless chats. leave it, i can understand. that freaky devil is in love. chinki saala. and what what the hell is with that chikna. roaming around as always must have been busy with his dealings and hand gestures at some corner of the hostel. i must say these guys can make you crazy with their deeds. ok so i m here the king of the world with so much to tell. i know, no one will care or read this but.... hey, i will make jha read this coz he has promised at least. you are great jha. always with me rubbing something between our hands with great passion. i love it. so guys off to the movies now. see ya.

once again i wasted my time doing this and that after smoking the joint. i know that these things will not matter a lot after sometime but i want to write after smoking. and i know jha hasnt written anything too. but maybe after gaining all my senses i have written this, another time it will be written in time. so dude dont worry, we'll do this next time.but i must admit the card thing was superb. i dont know how these things work but beginners luck, bad luck, good luck, all these luck craps are so closely related to cards. only those who play cards can know this.