There is a miraculous text called Gita. Everytime I read it I think that I have figured it all out but every next reading reveals things that were yet hidden. My thinking in college days was not to be influenced by happiness or sorrow and act in all the situations being detached as a "karmyogi". But it seems that there is much more to it than that. While I tried to be detached from the fruits of actions, I later realised that I became detached from actions itself. I never tried to accomplish anything and thus the question of being detached from the fruits never arise in the first place.
Now that I am trying to accomplish something, the motive is to prove that I am capable and to establish a niche for myself in the society. But it seems that this motive in itself is at fault. I forced myself to think sometimes that I am doing this to just gain some knowledge and not to prove anything. But you can't lie to yourself, can you? And I have experienced the disadvantages attached to this thinking. I am not able to concentrate on my studies. I think about the result of exam. I think, what if I am not able to clear the exam? If I have chosen the right path by opting to start the preparation. All these questions have their effects and hampers the concentration required for preparation.
It seems that I was content, even if partially, with the result of an experiment, the basic assumption of which was faulty. I was trying to be detached from the fruits of action when there were no real efforts. And when I am making a real effort, following the path is painstakingly difficult. But here lies the greatest beauty of Gita I guess. It never discards you. It has an inherent faith in the ability of man to do anything and hence it says- "Abhyasen tu kaunteyam". It realises the difficulty attached with the proposed path and itself says that without practise its not achievable and even with greatest of efforts you may gain very little. But the theme is to keep practising and it would surely make you a better person tomorrow. So I shall practice.
Now that I am trying to accomplish something, the motive is to prove that I am capable and to establish a niche for myself in the society. But it seems that this motive in itself is at fault. I forced myself to think sometimes that I am doing this to just gain some knowledge and not to prove anything. But you can't lie to yourself, can you? And I have experienced the disadvantages attached to this thinking. I am not able to concentrate on my studies. I think about the result of exam. I think, what if I am not able to clear the exam? If I have chosen the right path by opting to start the preparation. All these questions have their effects and hampers the concentration required for preparation.
It seems that I was content, even if partially, with the result of an experiment, the basic assumption of which was faulty. I was trying to be detached from the fruits of action when there were no real efforts. And when I am making a real effort, following the path is painstakingly difficult. But here lies the greatest beauty of Gita I guess. It never discards you. It has an inherent faith in the ability of man to do anything and hence it says- "Abhyasen tu kaunteyam". It realises the difficulty attached with the proposed path and itself says that without practise its not achievable and even with greatest of efforts you may gain very little. But the theme is to keep practising and it would surely make you a better person tomorrow. So I shall practice.
